Well, it's as I expected - the depression was a one day event. As I said it has happened before albeit very rarely and I still dislike the feeling alot. Thankfully it's over for now. The annoying thing is that although I know what I can do to feel better when I succumb to it, I just can't do it - more like my mind won't let me do it.
Woke up the day following the depression to discover that I was feeling better. As I was getting out of the house to go for ward rounds I looked up to see the fiery clouds of dawn. It was beautiful, the kind that really pacifies and calms the soul. Then I saw what made me feel all better:
It was 2 streaks of clouds in a 'V' shape running almost parallel to each other before merging near the horizon. The moment I saw that I was stunned by its significance. 1 streak represented me, what I am, where I am at this moment in time. The other streak represented all the things I love - family, friends, food - which incidentally are mostly back home (some in UK and NZ).
The 2 streaks were separated at first, which would indicate my current situation where I'm apart from all that I love. But as I looked further, the streaks became closer and closer and finally merged. To me it meant that this journey of mine will be a path to something good as it will, sometime in the future, reinforce and reunite me with all the things that I care about.
The moment I saw that and had that realisation, all the bad feelings vanished to be replaced by a warm glow and I was not depressed anymore - ready to face the days' challenges with my heart and head held high.
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One Sky, One Destiny
May the always be work for your hands to do, May your purse always hold a coin or two, May the sun shine on your windowpane, May a rainbow be certain to follow each rain, May the hand of a friend always be near you, May God fill your heart with gladness to cheer you.
About Me
- Ken
- Just a guy wandering the Earth, figuring out if life is predestined or whether we choose our paths. Concurrently attempting to study medicine and going crazy.
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Words of Wisdom
- You've got to start with the hardest thing in the world: forgive yourself - May Parker, Spiderman 3
- You never truly know someone until you fight them - Seraph, The Matrix, Reloaded
- There is emptiness in form, there is form in emptiness
Quotable Quotes
- "Your Gin n' Tonic Futon brain inplants really make you smart!" "......That's Positronic-Photon brain you idiot! Gin n' Tonic Futon brain? You're making me sound like a sleepy drunk" - Xenogears
- You have the right to remain silent. What you lack is the capacity - Shrek
- Men are lucky they can only have one orgasm. Did you know women can have an hour long orgasm? - Dr Allison Cameron
- Sex COULD kill you. Do you know what the human body goes through when you have sex? Pupils dilate, arteries constrict, core temperature rises, heart races, blood pressure skyrockets, respiration becomes rapid and shallow, the brain fires bursts of electrical impulses from nowhere to nowhere, and secretions spit out of every gland, and the muscles tense and spasm like you're lifting three times your body weight. It's violent. It's ugly. And it's messy. And if God hadn't made it UNBELIEVABLY fun, the human race would have died out eons ago - Dr Allison Cameron
- You have a parasite. Don't worry. Many women learn to embrace this parasite. They name it, dress it up in tiny clothes, arrange playdates with other parasites - Dr Gregory House
- When I hired you I knew you were insane. I will continue to try and stop you from doing insane things but, once done, trying to convince an insane person not to do insane things is, in itself, insane - Dr Lisa Cuddy
- It is in the nature of medicine that you are gonna screw up, you are gonna kill someone. If you can't handle that reality, pick another profession - House
Reflections
- You can't get anywhere unless you start
- Do not choose to be wrong for the sake of being different
- Life is a canvas - you fill in the picture
- Pleasant thoughts make pleasant lives
- Every ending is a new beginning
- Your life is what your thoughts make it
- To know one's ignorance is part of knowledge
- You never know what you can do until you try
- Purpose is what gives life meaning
- To find friendship, offer friendship
- You'll never get rid of bad temper by losing it
- Fear is the parent of cruelty
- Each day comes just once in a lifetime
- Nothing makes people go into debt like trying to keep up with people who already are
- If we don't stand for something, we'll fall for anything
One Sky, One Destiny
Thought for the day
Handle every situation like a dog.
If you can't eat it, chew it or hump it...
Piss on it and walk away.
When we drink, we get drunk.
When we get drunk, we fall asleep.
When we fall asleep, we commit no sin.
When we commit no sin, we go to heaven.
So, let's all get drunk and go to heaven!
If you can't eat it, chew it or hump it...
Piss on it and walk away.
When we drink, we get drunk.
When we get drunk, we fall asleep.
When we fall asleep, we commit no sin.
When we commit no sin, we go to heaven.
So, let's all get drunk and go to heaven!
2 comments:
In an odd way, that's encouraging. I'm still at home but with you guys abroad, it sums up to pretty much the same thing
The next time you see something like that again, just pull our your camera (or "pinjam" one)... Would be nice to see...
yah you are right! nothing can keep us moving so far but the love from our our loved ones.
Gambatte ne! you are not alone on this journey!
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